Chantel

2009-08-14T07:27:00.000-07:00

Hello! I finally managed to afford a little time out to blog here. And talk to my friends online once again :) Life is still as good. School is fine, my classmates and i are really bonded together. I just signed up for night classes and hiphop dance classes as well! It's a really good way to kill time! We have a lot of parties and gatherings during Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays.

Pictures of my classmates and schoolmates! This was our class gathering night. It was awesome. During that night some of the photographers from my school came to take pictures of us and gradually, they invited me to their photoshoots and to model for their international photo gallery portfolio?! Because i just posed for their cameras! LOL. Of course i did not reject them. Since they believed in me to do this favor for them, i accepted and the photoshoots will carry out really soon.

Just before i blog out, i am here to flaunt to my friends in Sg that.....NEXT WEEK...Chantel is going to put her hands on the steering wheel officially, driving to school, LEGALLY with MY DRIVING LICENSE :P Daddy and Christina managed to 'get' a car and i don't know how they 'get' it. It's not buying nor renting. It's like a monthly car change. You pay for everymonth, to maintain the car. But definitely not owning the car. It's rather complicated. But who cares! I am able to drive to school already! YAY!!!!!!

Miss all of you :)

2009-08-05T05:45:00.000-07:00

Only if baby is still with me...baby would be 11weeks old already. And i wold already have known baby's gender..viewing through all the scannings and diaries i wrote. I started tearing again. I miss my baby so much. But then again, i told myself that everyone who loves me has not given up on me..I believe, i will love my next child, as much as how i love my first. It was my happiest days of my life having my baby with me for 5weeks.

These few days in Sydney is really cold, 15 degrees and below. Wearing sweater to school everyday! Having fun with my new mates and teachers. Yesterday, we had this interacting lesson..everyone supposed to talk about the past and why we came to this school. I am not afraid to let my mates and teachers know, it's impossible to keep from them and i don't wanna hide that i was once pregnant.

I told them the story of why i ended up in Sydney. Some of the females sobbed, some of the guys looked stunned, teachers was impressed that i shared my privacy with the class. I was already prepared if anyone is going to poke at me and giggle or tease me about it. But no one did that! Not even the guys! They told me life should move on and my fun and memorable life start here with them..hahaha. I think they really stood by me and support me. I'm so glad that i came here and knew all these great mates.

So as those readers out there like you, thank you so much. All of you saved my life. (Generally, i don't know when i will stop thanking you guys) I love you all.

And Joanna(someone who reads my blog) e-mailed me and asked me, will i ever stepped into a new relationship again after i faced all these obstacles and fear of relationship.

My answer to you is: Yes. I am not afraid of relationship and my current status is single and available. Doesn't mean after all these happenings, i will not step in relationship again. I will. I still want to fall in love with the guy i love. I still want to experience dating again :)

These are few of my mate who came from Singapore too!! Amazing isn't it? :) I am not alone!

2009-08-01T10:34:00.000-07:00

My new mates!!! They are probably the friendliest people you can ever find in Sydney. They prepared a welcome party for me!! With all the welcome post-it notes on my assigned table. It's amazing!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM! And Sir Pierson is definitely the fun teacher i ever met. He dances during lessons!! And amazingly, he is a break dancer!!!!! My god.

School here is awesome, and i'm really enjoying it here! Of course, not forgetting today is Saturday, I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE! I am going to drive soon!! And i will definitely catch a pic of it! Hahaha! I'm lovin it here. So as Daddy and Mummy. Daddy's company just assigned him to go work in Sydney with another company that his co. is allied with. Omg :) Daddy made such huge impact Hahaha!

Ah, ok! I'm seriously chatting with a lot of people now
Bye!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-27T02:57:00.000-07:00

Hello dear friends, my school is going to start this Thursday and i am excited about it! I am going to my normal high school days, have fun, play pranks, lunch meals together. Going to meet new friends! And who knows, maybe some guy..haha! I sounds like i am desperate for a boyfriend!! I am not okay. Just perhaps a little love :D

Lewis! I met him for breakfast just this morning when he returned to Sydney. We're really hanging out well and he's my closest friend in Sydney currently :) I'm doing really fine here!

HAPPIEST thing is, I AM GOING TO GET MY DRIVING LICENSE THIS SATURDAY! The age requirement here is only 17. So daddy told me hurry to get my license and he's going to buy a car once the money from our property agent in sg have contacted daddy. And daddy, Christina and i can drive the car!!!!!! Except mummy. She hate to drive. She loves to be driven. LOL I am really happy!

The weather here is perfect, not sizzling hot, not shivering cold. Just right, cooling and cloudy 13 degree celsius . I really love it here!! And i definitely miss all my friends in SG! You're not forgotten okay! I love you!

My well packed closet :)

Shoe rack too!!

Uses nicely done by me!!!! :D

I'm happy with everything (:

xoxo
Chantel

2009-07-24T03:35:00.000-07:00

Chantel is in Sydney!!

It's 9.35 here in Sydney and 7pm+ in Singapore?, Just finished packing my stuffs and my room. It's really messy i managed to capture a night view from my living room here. It was a 7hours flight, and i touched down with all the big luggage and boxes to claim at the reception. And we need to split into 2 taxi! LOL. Mom and i took one, Christina and dad took another..and went to check in our apartment in Meriton Bondi! I was completely excited of course! So do Christina. Each of us got the house keys and with the help of the staffs there to help our luggage up. They're really friendly people here, Brandi and Andy.

Luggages!! packing!

Daddy packed the bathroom!

Small kitchen, but i'm totally fine with it :) mom loves it

Filling up the kitchen!

my room. Neat & tidy already :)

I've not eat my dinner yet :( Daddy just called dinner delivery. Will be having my dinner really soon i guess. Tomorrow we're going to hit the superstore nearby and buy things we need!!! And my school will start on Thursday! I can't wait for it :)

This morning before i left, i left a lot of smses to my friends! I hope they got my messages. Though at the airport i saw J there. I didn't talk to him much. But i can't always avoid him. So i told him to move on with life. And wish him all the best. But it didnt went that well..he grabbed me and not allowing me to go..he hurt my wrist. But daddy stopped him..and i went away with Christina and mom. I don't know what to say but i don't wish to have anything else to do with J. It was a mistake, a painful memory. Though i'm feeling better. But seeing him makes me thing how cruel he was, how fake our love was, the death of my baby. I will never accept you again, J.

Dinner is here! Will be up on msn later! Chat with me yup? I got back my password and you can add me on 2 of my msn. toxicated-@hotmail.com or forgetmetonight3@hotmail.com

Expecting to chat with all my friends tonight! (: i miss them, so much eh!

2009-07-23T06:30:00.000-07:00

Last Night, in Singapore.

Packing my luggage is almost done. Only bringing my clothes, and things i need to bring..Funitures & my flat will be sold soon..We'll be putting up at Meriton Bondi apartment in Sydney. I somehow will miss my home here. Because of me, i created all these troubles for my family..selling house, car, furnitures, giving up their jobs and starting a new life..

Thanks for all the gifts, cards and parcels. I've received them this afternoon. From Marcus, Tiffany, Jasmine, Mae, Amelia, Deborah, Madeline, Cheryl, Noelle, Joy, Keling, Regina, Alicia, Mei Ling, Lawrence, ZhiBoon, Joe Tan, Eviena, Rachael, Bernice and Zacky. E-mails, smses and so on. Thanks alot. I will return mail to you all one by one! :) I really thank god for having you all as my friends. I will remember all of you :)

Lewis came to my place and helped my parents with some moving stuff. Thanks Lewis! Arghhhh why is everyone wishing me last long with Lewis!! LOL. He is just my bestest guy friend! Not my boyfriend! LOL! My 7years of best friend! Getttt it clearrrrrr okay! I love Lewis as my bestest guy friend who helped me and stayed with me past few days.

Though i'm single and available :P

MY EMPORIO ARMANI PERFUME I WANTED LONG AGO!! THANKS JASMINEEEEE DARLING. I didn't take a picture because it's all nicely wrapped up!

I'm also here to flaunt this bag, that Tiffany, Mae, Amelia and Deborah bought for me. I love it

Jacket from Madeline! She told me to keep myself warm!

Lacoste Shoes from Cheryl!!! i love ittt omg

Regina & Eviena got me NYX glosses!!!

Cupcakes i received by delivery! from Keling!

And a lot more!! Thank you for all the cards! I LOVE ALL OF YOU.

And i hope some of the people i got to know online, and supported me, tagged my blog all these while to keep me positive. Sarah, YuWen, Zhi Xiang, Jessica and Nick and a lot of passerby :) Do leave your name on my tagboard ok! I always read them!

It's 10.43pm, i will be out later with some of my friends for supper before i leave :)

I LOVE YOU ALL. Bless you all.
I will blog after i arrived there (:

2009-07-22T06:24:00.001-07:00

What's wrong with Blogger in Firefox? It seems there's a huge problem in blogging. Right, anyway. I will be gone this friday. And most of you are asking me, how have my life been, any new guys and all.

I'm really thankful to all my friends and those who e-mailed / tagged my blog who put me through all these hardship and suffering i've been through. And all the encouragements, advices, gifts, love, care and concern. I've been reading them and telling me how strong i am..It really put me through all the painful tortures. And definitely, my family. No matter how tough or painful things could get, remember only your family will stand by you more than anyone else.

As for now, i am back to myself. After migrating to Sydney, dad signed me up for private classes to still take my exams papers. These while, daddy really spent a lot of money on me, yet he didn't complained or breathe a word of nuisiance at all. I love him.

I have been catching with all my friends in SG before i depart. And one of them is definitely Jasmine. She stood by me whenever i need help, and never fail to keep me accompanied. I know she will be sad when i'm gone before she no longer have best friends in Sg with her anymore. I love her.

One of my bestest guy friend, Lewis.
My bestest friend ever. It's fate that we meet in Sg again. Most of my friends asked me, who is Lewis. I'd tell you what's with me and him. He is my Primary 4, first classmate in Sg. He is an australian + sg. but a Singaporean. We studied together all the way till Secondary 3, when his results was tooooooooo fabulous, his dad sent him to Australia to study College!!! When we're only 15 years old!! We contacted through msn still. At once he confessed to me. But i was attached to J, very deeply. So i rejected him..

Almost a year later, he found a new gf in Sydney but he got cheated (almost like my situation! haha). Broke up..and we contact back just recently, this year, May. He came to know about my situation and felt really sad. So he said he'd have the chance to return to Singapore for his mom's relatives reunion. In which, he did!!!! He just returned to Sg few days ago. And told me immediately. I met him up at Marina. And we chatted together, laugh and cried. It was so embarrasing to cry infront of him! haha.

I miss him and guess what, he will also be returning to Sydney just 2days after my departure! I'll get to see him in Sydney again.

Thanks Lewis, xoxo ily. It's fate, it's destiny that we get to meet again.

Thanks everyone, you saved my life. I love you all
xoxo, Chantel

2009-07-20T07:48:00.000-07:00

Thank you Lewis (: For keeping me accompanied last night. And sharing all your stories with me..lending me your shoulder to try on.

Chantel today is going to be a strong girl. And move on with life. And i will always remember my dearest 5weeks baby. I love you muacks.

Be gone

2009-07-13T09:32:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the long lost update. I was taking time to calm myself..

Thanks for all the messages. and consoling. I feel much better already..But i still miss my baby..Every night i'd flip my baby diary and read it..how i felt every day, how excited i was..I can't help it but to cry in my blanket.. It's still painful, i pray for my baby everynight..I want to tell my baby that, i'll always love you. more than anyone else could.

I'll be settling down at Sydney. Departing Singapore on 24th July 09, 7am Flight No. SQ233 . Arriving Kingsford Smith airport at 4pm plus..

I just want to escape away..He is still texting me, emailing me..getting ways to get me back. But to tell you,
ITS I M P O S S I B L E. Plz Wake up your mind. Move on with life. And i got nothing to do with you anymore.

New life.

2009-07-02T08:19:00.000-07:00

After days of misery, i believe my misery will still live on. I didn't stop thinking about my baby..my lost baby. By now, baby should be 6weeks old..

Past few days, was talking to mummy and daddy. About our migration to Sydney. I will be leaving after they finishes their work here, and submitting to ICA. Will be informed in one week time or later..

I'm about to leave the island of pain.

Goodbye, my dearest baby.

2009-06-27T11:21:00.001-07:00

i reached my specialist centre with my sister and mummy today at 8.15am, quite early..I slept at 4am in the morning..writing everything down on the book. How i felt that time..how i wished all these didn't happened..Tears came by, and thinking about the times i found out my pregnancy..and this little angel enlightened my life..and this angel is going to change my whole life..but a mummy like me, can't become a perfect mummy for this baby..i'm really sorry..i know my baby hates me for that.

Doc Tan came, she's my doctor. I did the last ultrascan for baby, and Doc Tan gave me the scan picture..though can't really see, because its only 5weeks and 4days old. This is my last picture of my baby.
I can't see your face, i don't know you gender, i can't feel you, i can't touch or hug you, i can't talk to you..but i can only love you.

Then i couldnt help it, but to cry again..how i hope he was here to see the scan with me..but just fuck it la okay. Doc Tan still asked me again if i want to do this...i hesitate for a moment..but still moved on with the abortion..my baby cannot have a daddy like this..The abortion took quite fast..1st trimester only like 20mins..2nd trimester40mins plus..1st trim, she injected me... 2nd trim, she insert a tablet vaginally. and inject me again...then stomach cramps came..doc tell me the baby is reacting to the tablet..told me to get prepared..then she used something to mash it...waa fuck i feel like dying. then everything including baby and my blood all came out in liquid form...i cannot believe it..Doc told me not to see...but i saw. I seriously cried like fucking that i can't catch my breath..Another nurse came in told me to relax.. HOW THE FUCK YOU WANT ME TO RELAX. SEEING MY BABY IN LIQUID FORM. I MURDERED MY OWN BABY...

Doc Tan inject me again so i won't feel the pain..but will be side effects for the next one month..

By 9.40am, my baby..is gone. Gone from me, gone forever. No longer living in my womb..no longer. I cried all the way home with the picture of my scan...saw that guy downstairs my house crying too..he will never understand how it felt..how i felt and how our baby felt..Mummy chased him away..and went back home...Christina and mummy cried in the room with me..I'm really sorry..for making my whole family like this..fuck it. I really want to be a cheerful and happy Chantel..but..i'll try..

It's 2.53am, i dare not to sleep..because i will see baby scolding me when i sleep..i'm really restless and tired..sorry to my friends who've been calling me but i didnt switch on my phone..i'm really tired..really..

Msn changed

2009-06-25T08:23:00.001-07:00

To people who are looking for me, my msn have changed because someone hacked into it and changed my password. Or anyone wish to add me up on msn :) toxicated-@hotmail.com (using back my old msn)

Spending the last 2days with my baby...I wrote down alot of things in a book..I really hope my baby won't blame me..I still feel very painful inside..I wanted to keep this baby so much..it was like my little slice of happiness. I really admire those young mummies out there..able to feel and hug their own child..and i can't..I don't even know my baby is a girl or boy..But doc told me high chance that it's a girl.. I even wanted to name my baby girl Chloe.. Because Ch(Chantel) l(love) oe(joe) Chloe. If it's a boy i'd name him Joel. Jo(joe) el(chantel).

I don't have a chance to call my baby..so i have a little advice to all young girls like me there..Think twice before gettin pregnant with your boyfriend..Eventhough he is old enough, or rich, or kind, or understanding. or whatever. Guys can be anything..Don't walk my tough path, ended up losing your very own first baby.

I really thanks to those people who emailed to me..and told me how to move on with life..if you want to ask me anything, feel free to ask me. toxicated-@hotmail.com If you're going through like me..can look for me too..i'd help you. Because you won't want to feel how is it like to murder your own baby.

My book i've written is already almost 100 pages. So i can read back and make me feel that my baby is still living in my heart..

Thanks to alot of people who stood by me when i brokedown.. Especially my sister, Christina.

Face the reality.

2009-06-23T23:31:00.000-07:00

I have been hiding from Joe. Although he was looking for me high and low. To those readers reading my blog, may think i'm a heartless girl. Inhuman person. Because i decided to cancel our wedding, and abort our baby away. This is of course not because of the Celine with Joe. It's because Celine had already lost her virgin to Joe. I can't accept any words Joe said to me anymore.

I visited my doctor 2days ago..and told her everything..She's very sad to hear that because i told her, i wanted an abortion. Though she tried to persuade me, i've made up my mind. My abortion is on 27th June, Saturday 8.30am. I really feel like ending my life..I murder my own, very first baby. I know i'm selfish for not giving baby a chance to live. But i can't have a baby without a daddy. And knowing his daddy had an affair outside just before our wedding. I'm really sorry baby.

Last night, i talked to Joe's family with his presence. Explained to them..and his family scolded him like serious fcuking shit. His mummy cried..and apologized to me. It wasn't her fault..what must she say sorry to me for the sake of his son? It's pointless. Even Joe ran after me, after i left..i told him i can't carry on with him anymore..It's my first time seeing him cry that he coudlnt breathe a word..If he really love me, why did he even got involved with Celine and took her virgin? I returned him the ring..and our house keys.

I went back home, and told my sister about it first..Shes angry at Joe at first..then cried with me..I made so many people cried..Went into daddy's room and tell him and mummy..Daddy called him up and want Joe to explain..but he was still crying..Daddy and mummy scolded him too..my sister scolded him as well..But thankfully i have such wonderful family :) Daddy and mummy is willing me to go for abortion and cancel the whole damn fcuking thing.

After abortion, my family and i will be moving to Sydney. And i might not be coming back again..This little island is full of hatreds and tears. I had to leave, no matter what...

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This might be my last post talking about Joe. I know he will read this.

From the day i met you, from the day we've been together. One whole year, i thought we will be happy parents watching our baby grow for the next few years. The day you came all the way from your work just to fetch me, because its raining heavily. The day you came with all the food when i told you i havent had my dinner.. The day you rushed from your work knowing that i was admitted to Hospital..The day you came to fetch me to school knowing my bag is heavy..The day you said you promise to love me, till death do us apart..The day you signed our marriage certificate..The day i found out the secrets...to the day, that i'm losing my own baby..

I'm a straight person..once it's over, it's over..i never thought of considering second chance, because it never works. This once, hurts enough..i won't be able to take it anymore if the second time happens...neither am i going to let our baby suffer. I don't want baby everyday to hear our quarrel and see us crying..

For this one year, i'm still thankful of how you treat me and pamper me..and love(?) me. For letting me to live in this fairytale..Now it's over. I hope i will never dream of you or think of you again..you're like a nightmare in my life..I hope you will move on with life..I won't see you again, and you won't see me again. I hate to say this but...bye for us.

Crying.

2009-06-19T09:57:00.000-07:00

I don't know if i should blog this up since bby reads my blog..Maybe he'll see it later, maybe tomorrow. Was out with bby yesterday for dinner..And he's acting so strangely. Like keeping his things safe with him.. Then when he was driving, someone called. It was a lady. Then bby started to speak very softly saying he will call back..I thought was his work.. But i was wrong..Just a hour ago, you forgotten to log out your hotmail and went to sleep..I saw those e-mails..from Celine. So heartbreaking you know..

Not big enough? click go enlarge.

Bby, i don't know why you did this to me. When we just registered for our marriage few days ago.. You promise to love me forever..But why i saw those emails? You're sleeping in the room, i'm crying in the toilet with my laptop..with our baby inside our tummy. Asking why even our baby existed.

Looking at this picture, makes me cry. Our cert of marriage. Is like a piece of shit to you? Why bby..why you did this..I thought we could be the perfect husband and wife ever..but i was wrong. I can't accept it..i really can't accept it..What exactly you want me to do..Do you want me to abort and cancel our wedding. I really don't feel like keeping this baby already..Tell me what to do bby.. I feel like leaving home now...I gave you everything. i love you with all my life. Entrusting that our marriage would last. How am i going to tell my daddy? How am i going to face my family? WHY. FUCKING CB. WHY WHEN WE ARE GETTING MARRIED YOU DID THIS TO ME. I HATE YOU.

Maybe our baby not supposed to exist at all. Maybe we're just like a fairytale with sad ending. I'm really going to break down. Tell me, why you did this..just tell me why..

Baby :(

2009-06-13T08:08:00.001-07:00

This is Joe here. ..My baby Chantel is admitted into hospital last night.

Due to massive bleeding to her alone at home last night :( and i was at meeting never pick up her phone..fcuk it. Regretted it. Heng her friend called me. Baby will be discharged tomorrow!! Took leave to fetch her tomorrow. Poor baby. I so suck la. She needed me i wasnt there. nb.. Heng heng our baby is fine. and growing healthily inside her tummy.

I'm sorry baby...

Baby!

2009-06-05T00:46:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating. So busy for the past few days.

Yesterday went to see Gynae, cause i suddenly bleed yesterday. I thought something happened to baby!!! So scared. Then bby bought me to Gynae after i scream for him..LOL. Doctor say baby is fine and growing healthy inside! Relieve. She also reminded me to come back for checkup and baby scanning! hahaha!

The invitations and everything going to be done soon! Halfway done already :) Cannot wait for it! Next week going to try my wedding gown already! And the planning things for wedding. Busy anot! So so so sad, i'm going to miss all the parties :( and my job!! waalao..

I'm now at bby's house, playing nail polish with bby's mummy. LOL! Cute ah. Bby going to be home soon! Bringing us out for dinner and watch movie! LOL I miss bby! Poor bby, need to work and prepare for our wedding..need to worry about our baby also!! pooooor bby! I promise will bring our baby up healthily okay! :)

Going off already, anyway, i added the baby widget on the left. LOL! So you guys know how big is my baby already! hahahaa!

-'-

2009-05-31T10:19:00.000-07:00

_l_ to the friendship we have. The clique we always been together like mad woman. G o n e. Go spell yourself. Words are hurting when you all said that to me. Forget it.

Anyway, my birthday party at Meritus Lounge is cancelled. Maybe others. Because what for? When our clique of friends no longer exists. Forget it man _l_

Past few days were talking about all these and bought to an end. The end of us.

Happy issues always from bby and Jasmine :) ♥

Anyway after 2days of running around hotels, bby and i decided to have our celebrating at Hilton Sg. Because its on promotion! :) 918nett per table. And reserved 15 tables. 10 guest per table! Should be enough! :D Another 13k gone for a dinner ): Wedding is such a hassle, but bby still insisted <3 Today is Sunday! Had lunch at bby's house with his family before he left for work..and drove me back home. Because i had family dinner with my family :) ♥ Mummy's cooking is still the best!

this is how our wedding ballroom will be like! :D

Then after dinner mummy and christina helped me to list out guests names for our wedding. So busy you know! Then have to inform June( the hotel wedding assistant) by Wednesday. So we can have the invitations printed out! yay!! This week is so busy! wedding cakes still need to order and send out one by one! omgggggg! busy busy busy.

So tired already, if i don't sleep in the next minute, bby will call me up and scold me already. I cannot make him angry! if not i no wedding dress to wear :P Nighties!

♥Chantel

Yay!

2009-05-28T01:20:00.000-07:00

Good news, remember the condo unit that bby & i went to see? We got the unit already! Happy! Almost couldnt get it because someone offered higher price, but too bad la! bby is a property agent, so we got it first :P

Yesterday Ahma came over, and talk to me..haha Ahma wasn't angry at all :) She understands me so well!! We had lunch together with mummy and Christina. Christina followed mummy to market to buy food for dinner. Because bby bought her mummy over for dinner and discuss about our wedding stuffs.

I told them i wanted to keep this wedding small, cuz i didnt want people to know that its a shotgun, but bby didn't want..bby don't care about what people say, he just insisted to have a grand one..he wanted everything perfect for me :) thanks bby!! ♥

MummIES decided to hold the wedding on 3rd July!! Actually wanted to put end of year, but by then baby is growing big already. shucks! So we had to rush everything :(

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THIS EARLY MORNING, bby took leave..because we went to search for Bridal Boutiques. For bby and mine :) Was really really tiring! We went to Bridal Veli, J & C, Jess Haute, and La Belle Couture. Tried alot alot of gowns and bby tried alot of suits! TIRING! And bby was very bastard when we're at La Belle. he said this..

me: i like one! bby!! it fits on me perfectly!
bby talk to the assistant: do you have a bigger size?
assistant: sorry sir, we only have one size for each, unless you wish to do customizations.
me: bby? why need bigger size? this one is ok la!
bby: because you will grow fatter what! eat so much!

MEAN RIGHT?! Whose boyfriend so sarcastic & mean?!?! MINE LA. LOL Then all of us started laughing. LOL WTF. Then we went to Jesse Haute at North Bridge.

I still haven make up my mind!! I feel like buying all the gowns back home..LOL Help me choose! These are from Jess Haute Couture.

01 & 02

03

Gorgeous? I love 01 so much! and 02 03! And, our assistant, Jessica :) Sat for hours there, discussing with Jess about Indoor & Outdoor Photography, ROM, Make Up, HairDo, Bouquet, Car Deco, Gowns & Suits so & so..then we finally made a deal..It's expensive x_x! I think bby going bankrupt soon..The moment i see bby sign the cheque is like...the price of going Paris, with family of 4..Freaking 10.5k!!! EXPENSIVE RIGHT. Usually normally is only 5 or 6k for all..

Thanks Jessica! For helping us out! hahaha.

After that, already 7pm, late!! We went to Lavendar food centre. STINGRAY & FRIED OYSTER!! Hahaha! Ate alot! I can eat almost like bby's appetite! with Sugarcane juice, best dinner :) Bought fried oyster back for my family too! Then bby drive me home..and came up my place to check online which hotel we should host the banquet at..
Arghhh.

It's already almost 10pm, and we're still checking online!! Yawnnnnns~ Tomorrow will be going out to look for suitable hotel already..arghhh tiringgggggggggggg!!!!!!! after hotel, the gifts leh? the cakes, invitations and everything..going to be tired!!!

Going off already night night!

Shopping w bby's mummy

2009-05-26T06:03:00.001-07:00

Tada!! LOL. I know its really early to get a playmat now..but bby's mummy insisted on buying..because she also very gan jiong!! Looks fun right?? i hope i am a baby so i can play with it..LOL! This little baby sure gonna get very pampered with cool toys!! lucky baby!! It cost quite cheap also! only $140! Hahaha! It's very very softy!

Bby's mummy bring me to eat at Chicago Steakhouse! So nice! Then we went to Osim, and i bought a leg massager for her, cause she always leg pain!! Hahaha. Then we walk around at Kinokuniya. Bought some books there, for young parenting! hehe! Since i'm so free at home, i can read!! And few magazines :) I love to visit Kinokuniya because im a member there!! LOL. So i'll definitely get a cheaper price la! Like discount.

We went to have teatime at Delifrance, and shop around there. Bought myself a bag from Fendi!! So nice! Bby's mother also bought a Fendi wallet! Hahaha! Then waited till bby finish his work, came to have dinner together at chinese restaurant..Bought food from the foodcourt downstairs! And snacks back for bby's family :) Then bby drive me home!

Tomorrow ahma will be coming over to see me..i hope ahma won't scold me!! LOL. And tomorrow bby is going to cheque in for our condo unit!! i cannot wait for it to be approved :)

Anyway, because of my pregnancy, and soon after my confinement, i need someone to replace my job. Here are the details of my job. REPLACEMENT OF MY JOB

Duration: Starting on 1st June, till after my pregnancy & confinement (around a year)

Jobscope:
- Organize club/night events (must be able to do detailed proposals)
- Go around clubs/bars to assist events (modeling, fashion, dances, Party theme)
- Make sure events goes well and keep the amount of people in the club stable. (no overloading)
- Ticketings/door-sales
- Emcee/speaker for events

Requirements:
- at least 16yrs old
- flexible working hours (from 6.30pm - 4am)
- Absent for event = pay won't be included for that day.
- Able to stay throughout till whole event ends. (ends around 3am to 4)
- sociable + hardworking + polite + patient.

Pay scheme:
- each event proposal give (around $500 to $800)
- each SUCCESS & Completed event (1k - 2k)
So total pay would be around 1.5k TO 3k or more.
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- Pay are going according to how well you promote the event and the sales. (the more people, the more $)
- pay to be distributed end of month

if interested, can contact me @ xoxo.chantel@gmail.com email/msn me :] ♥ Training will be provided by me, no prob!

PROPOSAL :P

2009-05-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

Today is a happy day!!! because you all already know that my marriage is a shotgun..and bby didnt propose to me at all, like how the hell i would accept him to be my hubby right..i also kept thinking and sometimes upset about it.

I'm going to get married without a proper proposal from bby :( I kept thinking eversince the day i got pregnant. 19 May.

Today is 25th May, bby got half day off. So bby took me to see our new house. I was excited of course! Who doesn't get excited to see your new house right??

We went to Toa Payoh estates there, actually not bad lah. The rooms are big, convenient also, buses, trains, central. But a little noisy. So bby said i don't have to decide first, look at afew units first..so after Toa Payoh, bby drive to another place..

Punggol, it's new estate. It's not that bad, but the rooms are really small..especially the bedrooms like wtf. But not really convenient. Far away from the mrt, limited bus services. gaaaah, and 1 shopping mall?! 2 or 3 coffeeshops?! lol! Totally not my type..

Then last unit we went is to Parkway Parade condo..It's really nice, cozy and breezy and peaceful! Alot bus services also :) I really like it! So i told bby i decided for this condo! Then bby make few calls so i went to the balcony to take a picture..

Not bad right? :)

Bby said most probably will be able to get the unit once we cheque in! Which bby is going to do on Wednesday!! Hopefully can get this unit!! Then suddenly bby told me to close my eyes. (i thought he was going to bring me to the balcony)

Me: ask me close eyes for what?! you nothing to do ah..
Bby: waalao, you can wait anot?!?! Good things deserve to be waited.
Me: kuai dian la! (faster)
Bby: baby, open your eyes.

Haven even breathe a word out, i burst into tears already!! Bby was proposing to me!! Omg. And the ring was last year Xmas when i told bby the Charlotte ring was very nice..but the price was really steep. Last seen the price was 8650. But not sure if it decrease or increase. I still can remember very very very clearly what bby said.

"Baby, although our marriage came unplanned, and made you got baby and i never even propose to you..i feel like a useless bf..but baby, i want to propose to you here, in our new house, to remember the start of our family. Will you marry me? (giggling)"

Of course i said yes la! duh! then say what? No, i won't marry you? LOL. Bby is really sweet :)

LOL *show off. Nice right?! Thanks alot bbyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! I believe i won't regret marrying you :)

Then i wear the ring and cannot stop starring at it.. LOL. After that around evening, bby need to go back to work..so he told me to drive his car, he take bus back.. aww :( So i drive back home and have dinner with my family :) And showed my big proposal ring to my family. LOL!! I know i very haolian right? Thanks ha! Also told them about bby buying new house, and moving in after our wedding. I'm really happy that daddy said that bby is a capable and a man of word. WHOOO! Bby declared victory when i told him that. LOL!!!

Funny thing is, mummy scolded daddy, for not buying her a diamond ring for proposal. LOL. Daddy bought her the orbiang gold one. HAHAHA. Poor daddy!!

Tomorrow i'm going shopping with bby's mother!!! yay!! byebyebye! go study abit first! because i got NO SCHOOL FOR THE NEXT ONE YEAR?! YAY!

xo, Chantel.

Happy.

2009-05-24T00:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was bby's offday. So we went out together. hahas. Bby insisted to go see baby things. like wth! so gan jiong right..we went to Vivo City and bby had a hard time parking his car. LOL. Then went shopping! Bby is so bad when i saw a dress that i like..

me: bby, is this dress ok?
bby: no leh.
me: why? looks nice what.
bby: because few more months later cannot wear liao, cause your tummy big big!
me: wtf!!! then i pinch him.

So mean lor...its because of you lor. make my tummy big for the next few months..you're so gonna die. Then bought candies for bby's little sister. haha then we went to bby's house for dinner with his family. Then bby drive me home :)

Was damn tired then fall asleep after mummy gave me some kind of dessert before bed :)

my happy face! LOL :P
love bby & baby! :P

MARRIAGE :D:D

2009-05-20T04:58:00.000-07:00

See my title also know what is the outcome already!!!

BBY CAME MY HOUSE IN THE MORNING 8AM!!!!!! LOL.

Daddy was awake already..so we sat in the living room with mummy and my sister..then bby plucked his courage to confess to daddy.

Daddy didnt scold us at all..he just asked bby whats his plans..luckily bby planned everything last night.

1. Bby is going to register marriage with me
2. While preparing for wedding, bby will work extra hard to support me & baby.
3. Bby won't take money from my parents at all.
4. Bby's mummy will be able to takecare of me when i'm alone at home.

I'm so thankful..that daddy agreed and understand our situation a lot..and my sister, Christina for willing to help me out :) love her a lot.

Then we all went to have breakfast together! :) It was a family breakfast. I felt so happy and blissed.

Then mummy suggested bby to bring me to the gynae for checkup. Christina accompanied me too :) So bby drove us to Ann. Dr Tan examined me and told me its too small to see baby..must wait 2months later then come again..she also told me to take good care of myself because baby is growing everday inside my tummy ;)

1. No more clubbing.
2. No more alchohol.
3. No more running or jumping around.
4. Big and healthy diet everyday!!!
5. No more staying out late

Bby drove us to his house to talk about marriage with his family :) They met my sister too! haha, very socialable right! And we've decided to go register marriage next month a day before my birthday!!!!!!! Double happiness right! :D

Tomorrow going to school, to pass my withdrawal from school letter. Because daddy say need to rest a lot..luckily my N levels is as private candidate. So i have to study extra hard not to dissapoint mummy & daddy & importantly, bby!! :) I PROMISED I WILL SCORE WELL FOR N'S!!

bby & i are so excited to see our baby scanning!! :D

Chantel & Joe's little baby

2009-05-19T04:41:00.000-07:00

Chantel did not went to school because, i'm not feeling well today..i threw up 2times in the morning, and i knew i was going to be sick..But i realized that i've missed my period already..then i started to suspect that, past few weeks that i feel so nauseous and huge appetite, i went to pharmacy to buy pregnancy kit..

In the morning like 9am plus, i took the test, it was POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!

I don't know to be happy or cry, cause i scared daddy might be angry and wouldnt approve..so i kept crying..scared daddy will disown me. I don't know who to call at all..Wanted to call bby, but i scared bby won't want me or our baby anymore. I really scared. I tried to called Nicolette but think she was sleepin, so i called Jasmine, luckily she picked up!!!

So i told her what happened, then she asked me to tell my mummy and bby first..so i called bby and tell him..I thought bby will be pissed off or something..but bby didnt!! BBY WAS VERY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

me: bby, i took pregnancy test, and it shows positive..(sobbing)
bby: HUH?!?!?! MEANS YOU PREGNANT LA????
me: ya..sorry baby..sorry baby.
bby: SORRY FOR WHAT? YOU SIAO OR WHAT!!! ITS OUR PRECIOUS BABY LEH!!! HAHAHAHA I CAN BE DADDY ALREADY LA?? PAPA PAPAAAAA

I was so shocked when bby said that!!!! then i became so happy!!!! :D So i called mummy and told her! Mummy say don't lie to her, i never!! so i say i sumpa! Mummy also happy!!! omg right? LOL! i also cannot believe it lor. After that, bby took half day off and came to my house straight after that!!

me: mummy, i tell you something hor
mummy: ya? you hungry ah?
me: no la, i serious de.
mummy: oh haha then what you want?
me: i hor...took the pregnancy kit leh..then right its a..err positive leh
mummy: zhen de ma???! (really anot?)
me: ya la! bluff you got money ah.
mummy: waaa!! i be ahma liao!! hao ah hao ah! (good ah good ah)
me: mummy you not angry?
mummy: you siao..angry for what!!! baby cute leh!

Stupid bby, keep rubbing my tummy. Then he bring me to his house to tell his parents..they didn't get angry but very supportive & understanding :) Bby's mummy say its time to go ROM then wedding before my tummy gets big..so i said dont know if my daddy agrees anot..

When on the way home after dinner, bby on the car said to me that no matter how hard its gonna take for daddy to accept us and our baby, he won't give up. I touched till i cried! I♥you bby :)

But daddy said he wont be home early..so bby say tomorrow morning he come again..

I really realized how much bby is willing to do things for me, no matter what is the outcome, he will always be there for me.

I hope

2009-05-18T04:39:00.000-07:00

things will takes to an agreement

and not disgrace or hatreds.

EXAMS!!!!!!

2009-05-16T06:59:00.000-07:00

Today is Saturday right..

This morning went to school............History exam. like wtf. 8am - 930am. Surprisingly, didnt know bby took off today!!!! He was outside my school waiting for me! hahaha! sweet guy :) he said want to bring me out cause was one of his brother's birthday.

Drove me home, and drove me out again! hahaha.

Happy Birthday Melvin! :)

Something bad happened when i was in bby's car. I suddenly feel so nauseous. So i told bby to stop..then he gave me sweet to eat..so i felt better..maybe was carsick. :P

Then we went to Cineleisure Kbox, Melvin booked 4rooms omg. so effing big! & he kept running around, he was sweating lor omg! ahhaha!! we sang birthday song for him, bby & Alex sang the loudest..what to do..guys~~~~~LOL =x

Ok la! i want to sleep already!!! so late!! almost 5am already!

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!
xo, Chantel :D

TY BABY!

2009-05-15T04:21:00.000-07:00

Bby knows that i'm very upset nowadays and stressed. because of my exams..and i'm having moodswings like wtf.
bby never fails to cheer me up :) he understands me the most!!

At 11pm, when i was studying for my History paper, bby called and asked how was it..

Bby: baby, hows your revision for exams?
me: its terrible lor :( i wished i need not to study
Bby: wei!!! you can't say that ok, or i'll get angry!!
me: okok! sorry!! i just feel so moody today! fk it.
Bby: Thats why you got me, this baby here! go open your door now
me: huh?? now?? don't want la so late already. (i still so stupid not knowing hes outside)
Bby: just open la aiyo..naggy girl.
me: oi! ok la! wait la!

*opens door*

Bby: tadah!!! see!! i prepare gift to cheer you up la! hahaha!

Isnt bby sweet? he even bought supper for me xD so we ate and study together!! Eventhough bby no need to study, he still study with me! helped me to highlight impt keypoints :) Thanks alot bby! studied till 1am, then bby went back home! Thanks bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbyy!!

LOVE BABY JOE MOST :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2009-05-14T21:05:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY LYNN! :D

Hope you enjoyed today :) though our class was a little boring and run out of ideas, we hope you love those gifts & plans we've made for you!!

May your wishes come true soooooooon!

Ohshit, today's Maths exam was like shit, i swear bby gonna scold me when he sees my results!!!!!!!!! uh nooooooooo!!

P.S: Chantel is hungry now la :(