I am a divorcee, once married & divorced. I had my own baby, but aborted.You can call me cruel, heartless. But i still know my baby will live within me forever.
19th May 09 - MY little baby existence♥!
25th May 09 -
17th June 09 -
22nd June 09 - see our baby scanning!
27th June 09 - My baby left me.
3rd July 09 - Wedding cancelled
Monday, July 27, 2009
Hello dear friends, my school is going to start this Thursday and i am excited about it! I am going to my normal high school days, have fun, play pranks, lunch meals together. Going to meet new friends! And who knows, maybe some guy..haha! I sounds like i am desperate for a boyfriend!! I am not okay. Just perhaps a little love :D
Lewis! I met him for breakfast just this morning when he returned to Sydney. We're really hanging out well and he's my closest friend in Sydney currently :) I'm doing really fine here!
HAPPIEST thing is, I AM GOING TO GET MY DRIVING LICENSE THIS SATURDAY! The age requirement here is only 17. So daddy told me hurry to get my license and he's going to buy a car once the money from our property agent in sg have contacted daddy. And daddy, Christina and i can drive the car!!!!!! Except mummy. She hate to drive. She loves to be driven. LOL I am really happy!
The weather here is perfect, not sizzling hot, not shivering cold. Just right, cooling and cloudy 13 degree celsius . I really love it here!! And i definitely miss all my friends in SG! You're not forgotten okay! I love you!
My well packed closet :)
Shoe rack too!!
Uses nicely done by me!!!! :D
I'm happy with everything (:
Lewis! I met him for breakfast just this morning when he returned to Sydney. We're really hanging out well and he's my closest friend in Sydney currently :) I'm doing really fine here!
HAPPIEST thing is, I AM GOING TO GET MY DRIVING LICENSE THIS SATURDAY! The age requirement here is only 17. So daddy told me hurry to get my license and he's going to buy a car once the money from our property agent in sg have contacted daddy. And daddy, Christina and i can drive the car!!!!!! Except mummy. She hate to drive. She loves to be driven. LOL I am really happy!
The weather here is perfect, not sizzling hot, not shivering cold. Just right, cooling and cloudy 13 degree celsius . I really love it here!! And i definitely miss all my friends in SG! You're not forgotten okay! I love you!
My well packed closet :)
Shoe rack too!!
Uses nicely done by me!!!! :D
I'm happy with everything (:
xoxo
Chantel
Chantel
Friday, July 24, 2009
Chantel is in Sydney!!
It's 9.35 here in Sydney and 7pm+ in Singapore?, Just finished packing my stuffs and my room. It's really messy i managed to capture a night view from my living room here. It was a 7hours flight, and i touched down with all the big luggage and boxes to claim at the reception. And we need to split into 2 taxi! LOL. Mom and i took one, Christina and dad took another..and went to check in our apartment in Meriton Bondi! I was completely excited of course! So do Christina. Each of us got the house keys and with the help of the staffs there to help our luggage up. They're really friendly people here, Brandi and Andy.
Luggages!! packing!
Daddy packed the bathroom!
Small kitchen, but i'm totally fine with it :) mom loves it
Filling up the kitchen!
my room. Neat & tidy already :)
I've not eat my dinner yet :( Daddy just called dinner delivery. Will be having my dinner really soon i guess. Tomorrow we're going to hit the superstore nearby and buy things we need!!! And my school will start on Thursday! I can't wait for it :)
This morning before i left, i left a lot of smses to my friends! I hope they got my messages. Though at the airport i saw J there. I didn't talk to him much. But i can't always avoid him. So i told him to move on with life. And wish him all the best. But it didnt went that well..he grabbed me and not allowing me to go..he hurt my wrist. But daddy stopped him..and i went away with Christina and mom. I don't know what to say but i don't wish to have anything else to do with J. It was a mistake, a painful memory. Though i'm feeling better. But seeing him makes me thing how cruel he was, how fake our love was, the death of my baby. I will never accept you again, J.
Dinner is here! Will be up on msn later! Chat with me yup? I got back my password and you can add me on 2 of my msn. toxicated-@hotmail.com or forgetmetonight3@hotmail.com
Expecting to chat with all my friends tonight! (: i miss them, so much eh!
It's 9.35 here in Sydney and 7pm+ in Singapore?, Just finished packing my stuffs and my room. It's really messy i managed to capture a night view from my living room here. It was a 7hours flight, and i touched down with all the big luggage and boxes to claim at the reception. And we need to split into 2 taxi! LOL. Mom and i took one, Christina and dad took another..and went to check in our apartment in Meriton Bondi! I was completely excited of course! So do Christina. Each of us got the house keys and with the help of the staffs there to help our luggage up. They're really friendly people here, Brandi and Andy.
Luggages!! packing!
Small kitchen, but i'm totally fine with it :) mom loves it
Filling up the kitchen!
my room. Neat & tidy already :)
I've not eat my dinner yet :( Daddy just called dinner delivery. Will be having my dinner really soon i guess. Tomorrow we're going to hit the superstore nearby and buy things we need!!! And my school will start on Thursday! I can't wait for it :)
This morning before i left, i left a lot of smses to my friends! I hope they got my messages. Though at the airport i saw J there. I didn't talk to him much. But i can't always avoid him. So i told him to move on with life. And wish him all the best. But it didnt went that well..he grabbed me and not allowing me to go..he hurt my wrist. But daddy stopped him..and i went away with Christina and mom. I don't know what to say but i don't wish to have anything else to do with J. It was a mistake, a painful memory. Though i'm feeling better. But seeing him makes me thing how cruel he was, how fake our love was, the death of my baby. I will never accept you again, J.
Dinner is here! Will be up on msn later! Chat with me yup? I got back my password and you can add me on 2 of my msn. toxicated-@hotmail.com or forgetmetonight3@hotmail.com
Expecting to chat with all my friends tonight! (: i miss them, so much eh!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Last Night, in Singapore.
Packing my luggage is almost done. Only bringing my clothes, and things i need to bring..Funitures & my flat will be sold soon..We'll be putting up at Meriton Bondi apartment in Sydney. I somehow will miss my home here. Because of me, i created all these troubles for my family..selling house, car, furnitures, giving up their jobs and starting a new life..
Thanks for all the gifts, cards and parcels. I've received them this afternoon. From Marcus, Tiffany, Jasmine, Mae, Amelia, Deborah, Madeline, Cheryl, Noelle, Joy, Keling, Regina, Alicia, Mei Ling, Lawrence, ZhiBoon, Joe Tan, Eviena, Rachael, Bernice and Zacky. E-mails, smses and so on. Thanks alot. I will return mail to you all one by one! :) I really thank god for having you all as my friends. I will remember all of you :)
Lewis came to my place and helped my parents with some moving stuff. Thanks Lewis! Arghhhh why is everyone wishing me last long with Lewis!! LOL. He is just my bestest guy friend! Not my boyfriend! LOL! My 7years of best friend! Getttt it clearrrrrr okay! I love Lewis as my bestest guy friend who helped me and stayed with me past few days.
Though i'm single and available :P
MY EMPORIO ARMANI PERFUME I WANTED LONG AGO!! THANKS JASMINEEEEE DARLING. I didn't take a picture because it's all nicely wrapped up!
I'm also here to flaunt this bag, that Tiffany, Mae, Amelia and Deborah bought for me. I love it
Jacket from Madeline! She told me to keep myself warm!
Lacoste Shoes from Cheryl!!! i love ittt omg
Regina & Eviena got me NYX glosses!!!
Cupcakes i received by delivery! from Keling!
And a lot more!! Thank you for all the cards! I LOVE ALL OF YOU.
And i hope some of the people i got to know online, and supported me, tagged my blog all these while to keep me positive. Sarah, YuWen, Zhi Xiang, Jessica and Nick and a lot of passerby :) Do leave your name on my tagboard ok! I always read them!
It's 10.43pm, i will be out later with some of my friends for supper before i leave :)
I LOVE YOU ALL. Bless you all.
I will blog after i arrived there (:
Packing my luggage is almost done. Only bringing my clothes, and things i need to bring..Funitures & my flat will be sold soon..We'll be putting up at Meriton Bondi apartment in Sydney. I somehow will miss my home here. Because of me, i created all these troubles for my family..selling house, car, furnitures, giving up their jobs and starting a new life..
Thanks for all the gifts, cards and parcels. I've received them this afternoon. From Marcus, Tiffany, Jasmine, Mae, Amelia, Deborah, Madeline, Cheryl, Noelle, Joy, Keling, Regina, Alicia, Mei Ling, Lawrence, ZhiBoon, Joe Tan, Eviena, Rachael, Bernice and Zacky. E-mails, smses and so on. Thanks alot. I will return mail to you all one by one! :) I really thank god for having you all as my friends. I will remember all of you :)
Lewis came to my place and helped my parents with some moving stuff. Thanks Lewis! Arghhhh why is everyone wishing me last long with Lewis!! LOL. He is just my bestest guy friend! Not my boyfriend! LOL! My 7years of best friend! Getttt it clearrrrrr okay! I love Lewis as my bestest guy friend who helped me and stayed with me past few days.
Though i'm single and available :P
MY EMPORIO ARMANI PERFUME I WANTED LONG AGO!! THANKS JASMINEEEEE DARLING. I didn't take a picture because it's all nicely wrapped up!
I'm also here to flaunt this bag, that Tiffany, Mae, Amelia and Deborah bought for me. I love it
Jacket from Madeline! She told me to keep myself warm!
Lacoste Shoes from Cheryl!!! i love ittt omg
Regina & Eviena got me NYX glosses!!!
Cupcakes i received by delivery! from Keling!
And a lot more!! Thank you for all the cards! I LOVE ALL OF YOU.
And i hope some of the people i got to know online, and supported me, tagged my blog all these while to keep me positive. Sarah, YuWen, Zhi Xiang, Jessica and Nick and a lot of passerby :) Do leave your name on my tagboard ok! I always read them!
It's 10.43pm, i will be out later with some of my friends for supper before i leave :)
I LOVE YOU ALL. Bless you all.
I will blog after i arrived there (:
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
What's wrong with Blogger in Firefox? It seems there's a huge problem in blogging. Right, anyway. I will be gone this friday. And most of you are asking me, how have my life been, any new guys and all.
I'm really thankful to all my friends and those who e-mailed / tagged my blog who put me through all these hardship and suffering i've been through. And all the encouragements, advices, gifts, love, care and concern. I've been reading them and telling me how strong i am..It really put me through all the painful tortures. And definitely, my family. No matter how tough or painful things could get, remember only your family will stand by you more than anyone else.
As for now, i am back to myself. After migrating to Sydney, dad signed me up for private classes to still take my exams papers. These while, daddy really spent a lot of money on me, yet he didn't complained or breathe a word of nuisiance at all. I love him.
I have been catching with all my friends in SG before i depart. And one of them is definitely Jasmine. She stood by me whenever i need help, and never fail to keep me accompanied. I know she will be sad when i'm gone before she no longer have best friends in Sg with her anymore. I love her.
One of my bestest guy friend, Lewis.
My bestest friend ever. It's fate that we meet in Sg again. Most of my friends asked me, who is Lewis. I'd tell you what's with me and him. He is my Primary 4, first classmate in Sg. He is an australian + sg. but a Singaporean. We studied together all the way till Secondary 3, when his results was tooooooooo fabulous, his dad sent him to Australia to study College!!! When we're only 15 years old!! We contacted through msn still. At once he confessed to me. But i was attached to J, very deeply. So i rejected him..
Almost a year later, he found a new gf in Sydney but he got cheated (almost like my situation! haha). Broke up..and we contact back just recently, this year, May. He came to know about my situation and felt really sad. So he said he'd have the chance to return to Singapore for his mom's relatives reunion. In which, he did!!!! He just returned to Sg few days ago. And told me immediately. I met him up at Marina. And we chatted together, laugh and cried. It was so embarrasing to cry infront of him! haha.
I miss him and guess what, he will also be returning to Sydney just 2days after my departure! I'll get to see him in Sydney again.
I'm really thankful to all my friends and those who e-mailed / tagged my blog who put me through all these hardship and suffering i've been through. And all the encouragements, advices, gifts, love, care and concern. I've been reading them and telling me how strong i am..It really put me through all the painful tortures. And definitely, my family. No matter how tough or painful things could get, remember only your family will stand by you more than anyone else.
As for now, i am back to myself. After migrating to Sydney, dad signed me up for private classes to still take my exams papers. These while, daddy really spent a lot of money on me, yet he didn't complained or breathe a word of nuisiance at all. I love him.
I have been catching with all my friends in SG before i depart. And one of them is definitely Jasmine. She stood by me whenever i need help, and never fail to keep me accompanied. I know she will be sad when i'm gone before she no longer have best friends in Sg with her anymore. I love her.
One of my bestest guy friend, Lewis.
My bestest friend ever. It's fate that we meet in Sg again. Most of my friends asked me, who is Lewis. I'd tell you what's with me and him. He is my Primary 4, first classmate in Sg. He is an australian + sg. but a Singaporean. We studied together all the way till Secondary 3, when his results was tooooooooo fabulous, his dad sent him to Australia to study College!!! When we're only 15 years old!! We contacted through msn still. At once he confessed to me. But i was attached to J, very deeply. So i rejected him..
Almost a year later, he found a new gf in Sydney but he got cheated (almost like my situation! haha). Broke up..and we contact back just recently, this year, May. He came to know about my situation and felt really sad. So he said he'd have the chance to return to Singapore for his mom's relatives reunion. In which, he did!!!! He just returned to Sg few days ago. And told me immediately. I met him up at Marina. And we chatted together, laugh and cried. It was so embarrasing to cry infront of him! haha.
I miss him and guess what, he will also be returning to Sydney just 2days after my departure! I'll get to see him in Sydney again.
Thanks Lewis, xoxo ily. It's fate, it's destiny that we get to meet again.
Thanks everyone, you saved my life. I love you all
xoxo, Chantel
Monday, July 20, 2009
Thank you Lewis (: For keeping me accompanied last night. And sharing all your stories with me..lending me your shoulder to try on.
Chantel today is going to be a strong girl. And move on with life. And i will always remember my dearest 5weeks baby. I love you muacks.
Chantel today is going to be a strong girl. And move on with life. And i will always remember my dearest 5weeks baby. I love you muacks.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Be gone
Sorry for the long lost update. I was taking time to calm myself..
Thanks for all the messages. and consoling. I feel much better already..But i still miss my baby..Every night i'd flip my baby diary and read it..how i felt every day, how excited i was..I can't help it but to cry in my blanket.. It's still painful, i pray for my baby everynight..I want to tell my baby that, i'll always love you. more than anyone else could.
I'll be settling down at Sydney. Departing Singapore on 24th July 09, 7am Flight No. SQ233 . Arriving Kingsford Smith airport at 4pm plus..
I just want to escape away..He is still texting me, emailing me..getting ways to get me back. But to tell you,
ITS I M P O S S I B L E. Plz Wake up your mind. Move on with life. And i got nothing to do with you anymore.
Thanks for all the messages. and consoling. I feel much better already..But i still miss my baby..Every night i'd flip my baby diary and read it..how i felt every day, how excited i was..I can't help it but to cry in my blanket.. It's still painful, i pray for my baby everynight..I want to tell my baby that, i'll always love you. more than anyone else could.
I'll be settling down at Sydney. Departing Singapore on 24th July 09, 7am Flight No. SQ233 . Arriving Kingsford Smith airport at 4pm plus..
I just want to escape away..He is still texting me, emailing me..getting ways to get me back. But to tell you,
ITS I M P O S S I B L E. Plz Wake up your mind. Move on with life. And i got nothing to do with you anymore.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
New life.
After days of misery, i believe my misery will still live on. I didn't stop thinking about my baby..my lost baby. By now, baby should be 6weeks old..
Past few days, was talking to mummy and daddy. About our migration to Sydney. I will be leaving after they finishes their work here, and submitting to ICA. Will be informed in one week time or later..
Past few days, was talking to mummy and daddy. About our migration to Sydney. I will be leaving after they finishes their work here, and submitting to ICA. Will be informed in one week time or later..
I'm about to leave the island of pain.