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People usually addresses me as Chantel. Turned 17 on 18th June 92. Currently living + studying in Sydney. I used to be an Event organizer for night parties in Sg.

I am a divorcee, once married & divorced. I had my own baby, but aborted.You can call me cruel, heartless. But i still know my baby will live within me forever.

Chantel's story
19th May 09 - MY little baby existence♥!
25th May 09 - Bby proposed to me!
17th June 09 - Our Registration of Marriage!
22nd June 09 - see our baby scanning!
27th June 09 - My baby left me.
3rd July 09 - Wedding cancelled


read My pregnancy story***


You can mail me at:
forgetmetonight3@hotmail.com



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Friday, June 19, 2009
Crying.

I don't know if i should blog this up since bby reads my blog..Maybe he'll see it later, maybe tomorrow. Was out with bby yesterday for dinner..And he's acting so strangely. Like keeping his things safe with him.. Then when he was driving, someone called. It was a lady. Then bby started to speak very softly saying he will call back..I thought was his work.. But i was wrong..Just a hour ago, you forgotten to log out your hotmail and went to sleep..I saw those e-mails..from Celine. So heartbreaking you know..

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Bby, i don't know why you did this to me. When we just registered for our marriage few days ago.. You promise to love me forever..But why i saw those emails? You're sleeping in the room, i'm crying in the toilet with my laptop..with our baby inside our tummy. Asking why even our baby existed.

Looking at this picture, makes me cry. Our cert of marriage. Is like a piece of shit to you? Why bby..why you did this..I thought we could be the perfect husband and wife ever..but i was wrong. I can't accept it..i really can't accept it..What exactly you want me to do..Do you want me to abort and cancel our wedding. I really don't feel like keeping this baby already..Tell me what to do bby.. I feel like leaving home now...I gave you everything. i love you with all my life. Entrusting that our marriage would last. How am i going to tell my daddy? How am i going to face my family? WHY. FUCKING CB. WHY WHEN WE ARE GETTING MARRIED YOU DID THIS TO ME. I HATE YOU.

Maybe our baby not supposed to exist at all. Maybe we're just like a fairytale with sad ending. I'm really going to break down. Tell me, why you did this..just tell me why..