I am a divorcee, once married & divorced. I had my own baby, but aborted.You can call me cruel, heartless. But i still know my baby will live within me forever.
19th May 09 - MY little baby existence♥!
25th May 09 -
17th June 09 -
22nd June 09 - see our baby scanning!
27th June 09 - My baby left me.
3rd July 09 - Wedding cancelled
Friday, August 14, 2009
Hello! I finally managed to afford a little time out to blog here. And talk to my friends online once again :) Life is still as good. School is fine, my classmates and i are really bonded together. I just signed up for night classes and hiphop dance classes as well! It's a really good way to kill time! We have a lot of parties and gatherings during Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays.
Pictures of my classmates and schoolmates! This was our class gathering night. It was awesome. During that night some of the photographers from my school came to take pictures of us and gradually, they invited me to their photoshoots and to model for their international photo gallery portfolio?! Because i just posed for their cameras! LOL. Of course i did not reject them. Since they believed in me to do this favor for them, i accepted and the photoshoots will carry out really soon.
Just before i blog out, i am here to flaunt to my friends in Sg that.....NEXT WEEK...Chantel is going to put her hands on the steering wheel officially, driving to school, LEGALLY with MY DRIVING LICENSE :P Daddy and Christina managed to 'get' a car and i don't know how they 'get' it. It's not buying nor renting. It's like a monthly car change. You pay for everymonth, to maintain the car. But definitely not owning the car. It's rather complicated. But who cares! I am able to drive to school already! YAY!!!!!!
Miss all of you :)
Pictures of my classmates and schoolmates! This was our class gathering night. It was awesome. During that night some of the photographers from my school came to take pictures of us and gradually, they invited me to their photoshoots and to model for their international photo gallery portfolio?! Because i just posed for their cameras! LOL. Of course i did not reject them. Since they believed in me to do this favor for them, i accepted and the photoshoots will carry out really soon.
Just before i blog out, i am here to flaunt to my friends in Sg that.....NEXT WEEK...Chantel is going to put her hands on the steering wheel officially, driving to school, LEGALLY with MY DRIVING LICENSE :P Daddy and Christina managed to 'get' a car and i don't know how they 'get' it. It's not buying nor renting. It's like a monthly car change. You pay for everymonth, to maintain the car. But definitely not owning the car. It's rather complicated. But who cares! I am able to drive to school already! YAY!!!!!!
Miss all of you :)
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
These few days in Sydney is really cold, 15 degrees and below. Wearing sweater to school everyday! Having fun with my new mates and teachers. Yesterday, we had this interacting lesson..everyone supposed to talk about the past and why we came to this school. I am not afraid to let my mates and teachers know, it's impossible to keep from them and i don't wanna hide that i was once pregnant.
I told them the story of why i ended up in Sydney. Some of the females sobbed, some of the guys looked stunned, teachers was impressed that i shared my privacy with the class. I was already prepared if anyone is going to poke at me and giggle or tease me about it. But no one did that! Not even the guys! They told me life should move on and my fun and memorable life start here with them..hahaha. I think they really stood by me and support me. I'm so glad that i came here and knew all these great mates.
So as those readers out there like you, thank you so much. All of you saved my life. (Generally, i don't know when i will stop thanking you guys) I love you all.
And Joanna(someone who reads my blog) e-mailed me and asked me, will i ever stepped into a new relationship again after i faced all these obstacles and fear of relationship.
My answer to you is: Yes. I am not afraid of relationship and my current status is single and available. Doesn't mean after all these happenings, i will not step in relationship again. I will. I still want to fall in love with the guy i love. I still want to experience dating again :)
These are few of my mate who came from Singapore too!! Amazing isn't it? :) I am not alone!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
My new mates!!! They are probably the friendliest people you can ever find in Sydney. They prepared a welcome party for me!! With all the welcome post-it notes on my assigned table. It's amazing!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM! And Sir Pierson is definitely the fun teacher i ever met. He dances during lessons!! And amazingly, he is a break dancer!!!!! My god.
School here is awesome, and i'm really enjoying it here! Of course, not forgetting today is Saturday, I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE! I am going to drive soon!! And i will definitely catch a pic of it! Hahaha! I'm lovin it here. So as Daddy and Mummy. Daddy's company just assigned him to go work in Sydney with another company that his co. is allied with. Omg :) Daddy made such huge impact Hahaha!
Ah, ok! I'm seriously chatting with a lot of people now
Bye!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, July 27, 2009
Hello dear friends, my school is going to start this Thursday and i am excited about it! I am going to my normal high school days, have fun, play pranks, lunch meals together. Going to meet new friends! And who knows, maybe some guy..haha! I sounds like i am desperate for a boyfriend!! I am not okay. Just perhaps a little love :D
Lewis! I met him for breakfast just this morning when he returned to Sydney. We're really hanging out well and he's my closest friend in Sydney currently :) I'm doing really fine here!
HAPPIEST thing is, I AM GOING TO GET MY DRIVING LICENSE THIS SATURDAY! The age requirement here is only 17. So daddy told me hurry to get my license and he's going to buy a car once the money from our property agent in sg have contacted daddy. And daddy, Christina and i can drive the car!!!!!! Except mummy. She hate to drive. She loves to be driven. LOL I am really happy!
The weather here is perfect, not sizzling hot, not shivering cold. Just right, cooling and cloudy 13 degree celsius . I really love it here!! And i definitely miss all my friends in SG! You're not forgotten okay! I love you!
My well packed closet :)
Shoe rack too!!
Uses nicely done by me!!!! :D
I'm happy with everything (:
Lewis! I met him for breakfast just this morning when he returned to Sydney. We're really hanging out well and he's my closest friend in Sydney currently :) I'm doing really fine here!
HAPPIEST thing is, I AM GOING TO GET MY DRIVING LICENSE THIS SATURDAY! The age requirement here is only 17. So daddy told me hurry to get my license and he's going to buy a car once the money from our property agent in sg have contacted daddy. And daddy, Christina and i can drive the car!!!!!! Except mummy. She hate to drive. She loves to be driven. LOL I am really happy!
The weather here is perfect, not sizzling hot, not shivering cold. Just right, cooling and cloudy 13 degree celsius . I really love it here!! And i definitely miss all my friends in SG! You're not forgotten okay! I love you!
My well packed closet :)
Shoe rack too!!
Uses nicely done by me!!!! :D
I'm happy with everything (:
xoxo
Chantel
Chantel
Friday, July 24, 2009
Chantel is in Sydney!!
It's 9.35 here in Sydney and 7pm+ in Singapore?, Just finished packing my stuffs and my room. It's really messy i managed to capture a night view from my living room here. It was a 7hours flight, and i touched down with all the big luggage and boxes to claim at the reception. And we need to split into 2 taxi! LOL. Mom and i took one, Christina and dad took another..and went to check in our apartment in Meriton Bondi! I was completely excited of course! So do Christina. Each of us got the house keys and with the help of the staffs there to help our luggage up. They're really friendly people here, Brandi and Andy.
Luggages!! packing!
Daddy packed the bathroom!
Small kitchen, but i'm totally fine with it :) mom loves it
Filling up the kitchen!
my room. Neat & tidy already :)
I've not eat my dinner yet :( Daddy just called dinner delivery. Will be having my dinner really soon i guess. Tomorrow we're going to hit the superstore nearby and buy things we need!!! And my school will start on Thursday! I can't wait for it :)
This morning before i left, i left a lot of smses to my friends! I hope they got my messages. Though at the airport i saw J there. I didn't talk to him much. But i can't always avoid him. So i told him to move on with life. And wish him all the best. But it didnt went that well..he grabbed me and not allowing me to go..he hurt my wrist. But daddy stopped him..and i went away with Christina and mom. I don't know what to say but i don't wish to have anything else to do with J. It was a mistake, a painful memory. Though i'm feeling better. But seeing him makes me thing how cruel he was, how fake our love was, the death of my baby. I will never accept you again, J.
Dinner is here! Will be up on msn later! Chat with me yup? I got back my password and you can add me on 2 of my msn. toxicated-@hotmail.com or forgetmetonight3@hotmail.com
Expecting to chat with all my friends tonight! (: i miss them, so much eh!
It's 9.35 here in Sydney and 7pm+ in Singapore?, Just finished packing my stuffs and my room. It's really messy i managed to capture a night view from my living room here. It was a 7hours flight, and i touched down with all the big luggage and boxes to claim at the reception. And we need to split into 2 taxi! LOL. Mom and i took one, Christina and dad took another..and went to check in our apartment in Meriton Bondi! I was completely excited of course! So do Christina. Each of us got the house keys and with the help of the staffs there to help our luggage up. They're really friendly people here, Brandi and Andy.
Luggages!! packing!
Small kitchen, but i'm totally fine with it :) mom loves it
Filling up the kitchen!
my room. Neat & tidy already :)
I've not eat my dinner yet :( Daddy just called dinner delivery. Will be having my dinner really soon i guess. Tomorrow we're going to hit the superstore nearby and buy things we need!!! And my school will start on Thursday! I can't wait for it :)
This morning before i left, i left a lot of smses to my friends! I hope they got my messages. Though at the airport i saw J there. I didn't talk to him much. But i can't always avoid him. So i told him to move on with life. And wish him all the best. But it didnt went that well..he grabbed me and not allowing me to go..he hurt my wrist. But daddy stopped him..and i went away with Christina and mom. I don't know what to say but i don't wish to have anything else to do with J. It was a mistake, a painful memory. Though i'm feeling better. But seeing him makes me thing how cruel he was, how fake our love was, the death of my baby. I will never accept you again, J.
Dinner is here! Will be up on msn later! Chat with me yup? I got back my password and you can add me on 2 of my msn. toxicated-@hotmail.com or forgetmetonight3@hotmail.com
Expecting to chat with all my friends tonight! (: i miss them, so much eh!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Last Night, in Singapore.
Packing my luggage is almost done. Only bringing my clothes, and things i need to bring..Funitures & my flat will be sold soon..We'll be putting up at Meriton Bondi apartment in Sydney. I somehow will miss my home here. Because of me, i created all these troubles for my family..selling house, car, furnitures, giving up their jobs and starting a new life..
Thanks for all the gifts, cards and parcels. I've received them this afternoon. From Marcus, Tiffany, Jasmine, Mae, Amelia, Deborah, Madeline, Cheryl, Noelle, Joy, Keling, Regina, Alicia, Mei Ling, Lawrence, ZhiBoon, Joe Tan, Eviena, Rachael, Bernice and Zacky. E-mails, smses and so on. Thanks alot. I will return mail to you all one by one! :) I really thank god for having you all as my friends. I will remember all of you :)
Lewis came to my place and helped my parents with some moving stuff. Thanks Lewis! Arghhhh why is everyone wishing me last long with Lewis!! LOL. He is just my bestest guy friend! Not my boyfriend! LOL! My 7years of best friend! Getttt it clearrrrrr okay! I love Lewis as my bestest guy friend who helped me and stayed with me past few days.
Though i'm single and available :P
MY EMPORIO ARMANI PERFUME I WANTED LONG AGO!! THANKS JASMINEEEEE DARLING. I didn't take a picture because it's all nicely wrapped up!
I'm also here to flaunt this bag, that Tiffany, Mae, Amelia and Deborah bought for me. I love it
Jacket from Madeline! She told me to keep myself warm!
Lacoste Shoes from Cheryl!!! i love ittt omg
Regina & Eviena got me NYX glosses!!!
Cupcakes i received by delivery! from Keling!
And a lot more!! Thank you for all the cards! I LOVE ALL OF YOU.
And i hope some of the people i got to know online, and supported me, tagged my blog all these while to keep me positive. Sarah, YuWen, Zhi Xiang, Jessica and Nick and a lot of passerby :) Do leave your name on my tagboard ok! I always read them!
It's 10.43pm, i will be out later with some of my friends for supper before i leave :)
I LOVE YOU ALL. Bless you all.
I will blog after i arrived there (:
Packing my luggage is almost done. Only bringing my clothes, and things i need to bring..Funitures & my flat will be sold soon..We'll be putting up at Meriton Bondi apartment in Sydney. I somehow will miss my home here. Because of me, i created all these troubles for my family..selling house, car, furnitures, giving up their jobs and starting a new life..
Thanks for all the gifts, cards and parcels. I've received them this afternoon. From Marcus, Tiffany, Jasmine, Mae, Amelia, Deborah, Madeline, Cheryl, Noelle, Joy, Keling, Regina, Alicia, Mei Ling, Lawrence, ZhiBoon, Joe Tan, Eviena, Rachael, Bernice and Zacky. E-mails, smses and so on. Thanks alot. I will return mail to you all one by one! :) I really thank god for having you all as my friends. I will remember all of you :)
Lewis came to my place and helped my parents with some moving stuff. Thanks Lewis! Arghhhh why is everyone wishing me last long with Lewis!! LOL. He is just my bestest guy friend! Not my boyfriend! LOL! My 7years of best friend! Getttt it clearrrrrr okay! I love Lewis as my bestest guy friend who helped me and stayed with me past few days.
Though i'm single and available :P
MY EMPORIO ARMANI PERFUME I WANTED LONG AGO!! THANKS JASMINEEEEE DARLING. I didn't take a picture because it's all nicely wrapped up!
I'm also here to flaunt this bag, that Tiffany, Mae, Amelia and Deborah bought for me. I love it
Jacket from Madeline! She told me to keep myself warm!
Lacoste Shoes from Cheryl!!! i love ittt omg
Regina & Eviena got me NYX glosses!!!
Cupcakes i received by delivery! from Keling!
And a lot more!! Thank you for all the cards! I LOVE ALL OF YOU.
And i hope some of the people i got to know online, and supported me, tagged my blog all these while to keep me positive. Sarah, YuWen, Zhi Xiang, Jessica and Nick and a lot of passerby :) Do leave your name on my tagboard ok! I always read them!
It's 10.43pm, i will be out later with some of my friends for supper before i leave :)
I LOVE YOU ALL. Bless you all.
I will blog after i arrived there (:
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
What's wrong with Blogger in Firefox? It seems there's a huge problem in blogging. Right, anyway. I will be gone this friday. And most of you are asking me, how have my life been, any new guys and all.
I'm really thankful to all my friends and those who e-mailed / tagged my blog who put me through all these hardship and suffering i've been through. And all the encouragements, advices, gifts, love, care and concern. I've been reading them and telling me how strong i am..It really put me through all the painful tortures. And definitely, my family. No matter how tough or painful things could get, remember only your family will stand by you more than anyone else.
As for now, i am back to myself. After migrating to Sydney, dad signed me up for private classes to still take my exams papers. These while, daddy really spent a lot of money on me, yet he didn't complained or breathe a word of nuisiance at all. I love him.
I have been catching with all my friends in SG before i depart. And one of them is definitely Jasmine. She stood by me whenever i need help, and never fail to keep me accompanied. I know she will be sad when i'm gone before she no longer have best friends in Sg with her anymore. I love her.
One of my bestest guy friend, Lewis.
My bestest friend ever. It's fate that we meet in Sg again. Most of my friends asked me, who is Lewis. I'd tell you what's with me and him. He is my Primary 4, first classmate in Sg. He is an australian + sg. but a Singaporean. We studied together all the way till Secondary 3, when his results was tooooooooo fabulous, his dad sent him to Australia to study College!!! When we're only 15 years old!! We contacted through msn still. At once he confessed to me. But i was attached to J, very deeply. So i rejected him..
Almost a year later, he found a new gf in Sydney but he got cheated (almost like my situation! haha). Broke up..and we contact back just recently, this year, May. He came to know about my situation and felt really sad. So he said he'd have the chance to return to Singapore for his mom's relatives reunion. In which, he did!!!! He just returned to Sg few days ago. And told me immediately. I met him up at Marina. And we chatted together, laugh and cried. It was so embarrasing to cry infront of him! haha.
I miss him and guess what, he will also be returning to Sydney just 2days after my departure! I'll get to see him in Sydney again.
I'm really thankful to all my friends and those who e-mailed / tagged my blog who put me through all these hardship and suffering i've been through. And all the encouragements, advices, gifts, love, care and concern. I've been reading them and telling me how strong i am..It really put me through all the painful tortures. And definitely, my family. No matter how tough or painful things could get, remember only your family will stand by you more than anyone else.
As for now, i am back to myself. After migrating to Sydney, dad signed me up for private classes to still take my exams papers. These while, daddy really spent a lot of money on me, yet he didn't complained or breathe a word of nuisiance at all. I love him.
I have been catching with all my friends in SG before i depart. And one of them is definitely Jasmine. She stood by me whenever i need help, and never fail to keep me accompanied. I know she will be sad when i'm gone before she no longer have best friends in Sg with her anymore. I love her.
One of my bestest guy friend, Lewis.
My bestest friend ever. It's fate that we meet in Sg again. Most of my friends asked me, who is Lewis. I'd tell you what's with me and him. He is my Primary 4, first classmate in Sg. He is an australian + sg. but a Singaporean. We studied together all the way till Secondary 3, when his results was tooooooooo fabulous, his dad sent him to Australia to study College!!! When we're only 15 years old!! We contacted through msn still. At once he confessed to me. But i was attached to J, very deeply. So i rejected him..
Almost a year later, he found a new gf in Sydney but he got cheated (almost like my situation! haha). Broke up..and we contact back just recently, this year, May. He came to know about my situation and felt really sad. So he said he'd have the chance to return to Singapore for his mom's relatives reunion. In which, he did!!!! He just returned to Sg few days ago. And told me immediately. I met him up at Marina. And we chatted together, laugh and cried. It was so embarrasing to cry infront of him! haha.
I miss him and guess what, he will also be returning to Sydney just 2days after my departure! I'll get to see him in Sydney again.
Thanks Lewis, xoxo ily. It's fate, it's destiny that we get to meet again.
Thanks everyone, you saved my life. I love you all
xoxo, Chantel
Monday, July 20, 2009
Thank you Lewis (: For keeping me accompanied last night. And sharing all your stories with me..lending me your shoulder to try on.
Chantel today is going to be a strong girl. And move on with life. And i will always remember my dearest 5weeks baby. I love you muacks.
Chantel today is going to be a strong girl. And move on with life. And i will always remember my dearest 5weeks baby. I love you muacks.